Apathy is once again taking over my life

Things aren't going so well right now. School isn't that great. Senior year isn't that great. I don't get how so many people thought it was amazing. I just want out of here. Chorus really sucks. It used to be my escape from school, but it's just terrible now. Ensemble is terrible. The songs we're doing are horrible. Nobody cares about chorus anymore. General involvement has just gone down and it's disappointing. However, on the other hand, music tech is absolutely amazing. It allows me to pour everything I have into the music I'm writing; music I care about as opposed to the crap we're singing in chorus. Music is NOTHING if there's no soul. I strongly believe music is 99.9% passion and .1% talent. Without the passion, the love, and the soul, music is just nothing but a bunch of noise.

Anyways, I'm also sick of people. I feel like I lost a good majority of my friends just in the past month. Sure I get along with a lot of people, but I only feel like a have a few true friends. I can count the number of true friends I have on one hand . I don't trust many people anymore and I don't feel comfortable around people. I feel like I can't be around most people without being judged. I could use some praying for right now.